PCOS (Polycystic ovary syndrome). It’s a common syndrome in women, and for some
it can cause fertility issues.
As a young woman who
wants children, this news is heartbreaking. On top of that, I was also 200
pounds overweight which has a whole set of childbearing restraints on it’s own.
As far back as I can
remember, as a little girl playing with her baby dolls, I dreamed of being a
mommy. Holding my babydoll I would sing to her, rock her back and forth, and do
all of the things I had seen my older sister do with her babies.
And that feeling never
left my heart as I grew older.
So now that we are
moving closer to Mothers Day, I want to share a letter to the child who made a
mom in honor of the single most special day of the year for me.
My Long Road to Becoming a Mom
Dear McKenna,
At a young age, I was
told there was a good chance I wouldn’t be able to have children, or at least
it would be challenging because I had what is called
In my early 20s, I
decided it was time to make some lifestyle changes, because I was tired of
feeling the way I did, physically and mentally I was just not well. By
the time I was 22 years old, I had lost over 200 pounds and was feeling the
best I had ever felt in my life.
And shortly after that I
got pregnant with you -my very first child.
I will forever remember
the day I heard these words, It’s a girl!
My heart was overjoyed,
because I had beat the odds, not only in losing a substantial amount of weight,
but also in the promise of my future. My future as a mom.
You became the center of
my world. I guarded your every step, I read to you, and held you tight. I
pushed you high in the swing, and sang to you just to see the corners of your
mouth bend upward. My heart pounded every single time I looked in your eyes. My
love for you was swift and bold. I had never experienced anything more powerful
in my life.
I was and still am a
proud mom. And now that I have four kids, I realize that being a mommy is the
most important thing I’ll ever have accomplished in this lifetime.
To the child who made me a mom
You taught me what it
means to love someone else without condition. You filled my future with purpose
and hope, unlike anyone or anything else had on this journey. And as we near
the day we celebrate mom’s all around the world, I count my blessings. Because
being a mom is such a special and life-changing experience. One that I will
never take for granted.
Thank you, my child, for
defining my life, for being the light that shines brightly in the darkest days,
and being a beacon of strength in my heart that pulls me forward. You are and
always will be my everything. And yes, you do have to share space in my heart
with others, but there is something that no one else could ever have, and
that’s being the one who made me a mom first.
I love you more than
words and I am so happy to be able to watch you grow into a beautiful young
woman with her whole life ahead. I believe you are going to do great things
with the life that I have helped to shape. You are perfect just the way you are
in my eyes.
Love always Mom
Bio
Nicole Emanuel is the
creator and executive writer of a parenting lifestyle blog, Keep
Calm its Life. She is committed to
sharing her family’s journey on living healthy lifestyles, while motivating
moms around the world to practice loving themselves away from perfect
parenting. Nicole and her husband are busy raising a 13-year-old outspoken
teenage girl and three boys, ages 7, 6 and 4 in Colorado. If you’re ever
looking for healthy lifestyle tips, positive parenting, and self-care regimens
please be sure to check out her blog.
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